~kriselkri~

kanina sumakay ako ng jip pa-crossing sa elbi..

nakaupo ako sa second to the last mula dun sa entrance.

after a few minutes, nagbayad yung katabi ko (yung nasa pinakabungad ng jeep)

e di pasahan ng pamasahe papunta dun sa driver.

pagdating dun sa girlaloo na pinakamalapit sa driver, binilang nya yung coins. nagtaka naman ako kung bakit. inisip ko baka kumukuha na sya ng panukli tas isasabay nya yung bayad nya para sakto na yung bibigay nya sa driver.

tapos bigla nyang tinanong yung driver. parang bakit daw kulang or sobra (di ko sure kung ano ba) yung coins na hawak nya.

nagtaka naman yung driver.

tapos sabi ba naman nung babae, “ANU BA ‘TONG PINASA NYO SAKIN, SUKLI O BAYAD?”

duh.

panu naman magiging sukli yun kung dun nanggaling yung coins sa taong nasa pinakabungad ng jeep.

:l

anlabo.

“if you have a chance to take the moment that you know will be memorable, grab it. always think that the word NEXT TIME is always too far. Remember, the sooner the better and every moment counts.”

waaahh.. tama bang pinapalampas ko lang ang chance na makita si david cook at si david archuleta? minsan lang ang ganitong opportunity.  i hate it! hmp. waah…

ilang days ba meron ang february?

28 diba? hindi nga 29 e kasi di naman leap year ngayon.

isipin mo nga, panu mo pagkakasyahin sa loob ng month ng feb ang lahat ng activities na to:

-GA’s (kasama na ang planning ng kung anuano)

-chem demo

-gk build

-chem 32 tutorials

-feb fair (mula pagsesetup at pagdidismantle ng booth)

-valentine’s day (kasama talaga to. hihi.. wewenk.)

-lovelife. yuuuyyy….

-pag-asikaso ng sponsorship

-paggawa ng platform

-deliberation/election

-pagdadasal na sana sana sana kasya ang pera ng org/hindi kulangin/madagdagan pa

-PACS (manunuod lang naman kami. hehe)

-chemolympiad (mag-aassist)

-prelabs, postlabs at kung anuano pang lab reports

-exams, quizzes, assignments (lalo na sa bonggang 1 unit na chem 192)

-pumasok sa class syempre (lecture at lab)

-thesis (haha! feelingera ko! XD)

-pagiging tao

-kung posible pa, huminga, kumain at matulog

28 days. apir. (lunok lunok. buntong hininga.)

ayan. wala lang. yan lang ang lineup ng activities na pagkakaabalahan ko (at wag sanang papatay sakin) ngayong feb. yan lang sa loob ng 28 days.

oo na. no time for self pity.

ahuahuuuu… T_T

this better be a hoax.

dahil kung totoo nga na binabalak nilang ituloy ang twilight filipino version na ito (na takipsilim nga ang title)..

ewan ko na ah.

isang word lang: copycat.

sorry naman.

from the title (na literal lang na tinagalog), to the characters, to everything!

grr..

so panu nalang pag tinuloy nila yung series? magkakaroon ng bagong buwan (new moon)? ng pagsasalubong nga buwan at araw (eclipse)? ng (tagalog ng breaking dawn)? hay.

it’s not about being embarassed about our nationality (as what i’ve read from one website), it’s about being original. anu ba. may talent ang mga pinoy, no doubt! hindi kelangang gumawa ng tagalog version ng isang movie na malaki ang kinita just for the sake of also earning a lot. it’s not the same. una sa lahat, ang vampires ay wala sa culture ng mga pilipino. oo may tagalog ang vampire na bampira pero hindi uso ang bampira dito sa bansa natin. kung may bampira man, baka matagal na silang nangamatay or nag-migrate dahil hello, tropical country po kaya tayo. kung may blood drinkers man sa Philippine folklore, hindi bampira yun. iba ang tawag dun.

pangalawa, filipinos can do more. kung tutuusin kaya pang higitan ang twilight kung gugustuhin talaga. nagkataon lang na twilight ang uso ngayon, twilight ang ‘in’ at ang love team na edward-bella ang nakakakilig. mejo lilipas din naman ang kasikatan nyan. parang harry potter diba, uso lang talaga pag palabas ang movie (i am saying this, and i am a harry potter fan). at hindi ba mas nakaka-proud, kung galing sa sariling idea talaga ng pinoy at talagang magiging big hit? bakit, may mga indie films naman na nananalo ng awards sa ibang bansa. kung naapreciate sa kanila, what more dito diba? aba, dapat.

third, and medyo nakakadisappoint, ay yung mga nabasa kong feedbacks ng mga tao sa mga anti-takipsilim forums na nabasa ko. some of these twilight fanatics (as i feel they are branding themselves), iba ang isyu na kinagagalit nila.. sa cast, na nakakadiri daw at baduy. ang masakit pa, sinasabi ng iba na bababuyin lang daw ang twilight kung magiging tagalog version. hay naku para tuloy feeling ko hindi nila alam kung ano talaga ang ipinaglalaban or ikinaiinis nila.

ako, personally, i’m also a twilight fan. and i am against takipsilim BUT not to the point na i would say baduy ang filipino cast of characters at mabababoy ang twilight pag pinoy ang nag-remake. (anu ba yan, nasa’n ang nationality?) though i would feel na kung may tagalog version nga na takipsilim, it wouldn’t be the same as twilight, at yung excitement na na-feel ko nung pinapanuod ko yung twilight would not be the same sa mafi-feel ko sa takipsilim. ang sa akin, hindi kelangan na mag-remake or gayahin as isang isang foreign big hit film, dahil may sarili tayong identity. kung naeexplore lang talaga ng maigi ang talent at creativity ng pinoy.. at kung tinatangkilik diba. e di bongga.

basta ang puno’t dulo.. wag takipsilim. sana hoax nga lang..

Pasko na naman, o kay tulin ng araw…

totoo nga naman.

ang bilis no.

naalala ko pa yung blog entry ko last christmas. tanda ko medyo hindi ok ang mood ko nun.. for some reasons. hehe.. tapos ngayon, pasko ulit. and i am again making another blog entry. this time, matutulog ako ng may naka-plaster na ngiti sa mukha ko. like this: =D hehehe…

this christmas, ewan ko.. i guess loads happier than last year’s. una, okay ang mood naming lahat sa bahay, meaning walang uminit ang ulo, etc etc. yun lang, na-late kami sa misa kasi kala namin 9:30 eh 8:00 pala sya. pambihira. other than that,, ayun mas nakakapagod ngayon. walanjong dami kong ginawa knina.. naghugas ng pinggan, naglinis ng kwarto, nagbalot ng regalo, nag-assemble (mag-isa!) ng tv rack, nagluto, gumawa ng salad, nagkompyuter, nag-dota (seryoso haha..), nagtext, at huminga in between. minus na yung paglalaba dun ah. medyo sumakit yung likod ko, inisip ko nalang, burn the calories! yiaaaahh!!! hehe.. syempre kumain din pala ako ng kumain. masaya kasi ang sipag ko diba. yippee.. at napasaya ko si mami kasi wow ang linis ng kwarto namin kanina. apir. sakto kasi di ako nakabili ng regalo sa kanila ni dadi at cha. haha.. pero napansin ko lang, di na talaga nagma-matter ang gifts ngayon (ewan ko sa kapatid ko ah) sakin. i mean, ok lang walang nakabalot na gifts at i-a-unwrap. yay..

yung pinaka nakakatouch sa lahat.. yung gift galing kay j-em. hehe.. ayan syempre kinilig naman daw ako. i wasn’t expecting anything na from him kasi sabay kami bumili na ng gifts for each other nung nag-sm kami kaya inisip ko, yun na yun. tapos kanina, sabi ni mami sakin, may gift daw ako na nasa ibabaw ng kama ko. nagtaka naman daw ako kasi nga sbi nla wala na sila nkabalot na gift para sakin. binigyan lang nila ako ng P100 call and text card. pagpunta ko ng rum, ayun si gift sa ibabaw ng bed. and guess what nakasulat sa card…

“To isel, From j-em”

tas mga 30secs lag time at nakatitig lang ako sa gift kasi iniisip ko, joke ba to. pano naman kaya to mabibigay ni j-em diba. hindi naman kaya magkalapit ang batangas at binan. tas yun binuksan ko at may letter kasama ng stuff toy so sa kanya nga galing. aww.. at wag ka, ayaw nila ni mami sabihin sakin kung pano nakarating ang gift sa binan galing batangas. ang galing lang diba pinagtulungan nila ko. haha..

di ko na inalam kung pano nga ba.. inisip ko nalang,, ang effort grabe.. at na-touch talaga ako. at na-surprise. isang malaking CHARAN!!!! wala basta. di ko na gagawing mas personal pa sa personal na itong post ko. ang masasabi ko lang, i’m happy to have someone.. finally. this christmas. first time eh. haha.. at hindi lang basta someone. someone super special. hehe.. yuuy kilig. wahaha.. medyo personal na ata talaga ang part na to, sorry ha kelangan ko ilabas at i-share yung happiness eh. tis the season to be jolly..

at ayun syempre, masaya din ako kasi si Jesus ang sine-celebrate ko today at hindi si Santa Claus.

Happy birthday Jesus!

okay.

so now i totally understand why my bestfriend has been ‘nagging’ me to start reading twilight. and it wasn’t just her. there were also a couple of other friends who were crazy about it suggested me reading it. of course i would like to read twilight. problem is, books are pricey nowadays., and twilight is no exception. it was just timely that i received ebooks of twilight and its succeeding series  from a close friend. too good to be true. hehe.. she sent it a week ago i think. only today did i start reading it.

boy oh boy.

i have just been reunited with my most favorite hobby of all time:

reading.

and i had some realizations.

first, that reading is a laaaaazy and selfish hobby. yes, it is. especially if you’re so engrossed with the book that you’re reading. you simply just can’t put it down. you get so wrapped up in your own little world, travelling with the characters from page to page. and with twilight.. jeez.. i was only planning to take a peek of how the book is like, just read the first chapter. but no. after the first chapter, boom.

i was hooked.

it was like i was isabella looking into edward cullen’s eyes, him telling me to keep on reading and not to put the book down. i’m imagining how gorgeous edward is or how perfect his features are because in the book every lady just seemed dazzled by him.. oh, he’s a vampire by the way. but he’s not your typical human blood-sucking vampire. he only hunts on animals (it’s like the human counterpart of vegetarians) and he’s totally in love with a human being (bella).

second, i realized i really missed my old bookwormy self. i know, it’s still in me and i donn’t think i’ll ever outgrow it but it’s not like i still have the luxury of time. believe me. once the semester starts, bookwormy me will be put to rest again. back to good ol’ prelabs and postlabs. goodbye stories, hello mcmurry, morrison and boyd, atkins, etc. (as if i do really read these books.. well maybe.)

when i’m reading, it’s like i’m trapped in my own bubble. i become unaware of my surroundings, and i seem not to mind the time, the people around me, household chores, being hungry.. like i’m under some spell. i get too eager to go to the next chapter.. and i HATE being interrupted. it’s a sure way of getting into my nerves. see. lazy and selfish hobby. hehe..

i was amused.. i did start reading twilight just now and out of the 450 pages in the pdf file, i have finished reading 340 pages. if i had continuously read it (no lunch, no dinner, no whatever and just a day of pure reading) i  think i might have finished reading the whole book. i did finish reading harry potter and the sorcerer’s stone in a day, a school day. meaning i was reading while in class, while my teachers were lecturing. i was in grade 6 that time. hehe..

by tomorrow i’ll probably be finished with twilight. hopefully.
**chamaine, thanks so much for the e-books.

arond a few minutes after finishing this post (i’m not quite sure exactly how long,, not over an hour i think) i finally finished twilight! yooohoo!! in less than 24hrs i finished reading the whole book. i’m starting to feel like me again. hehe.. ^_^

pati ba naman dotA ayaw sakin.
haha..

i was playing kanina.

i got pawned for like, 10 times?

pero in two games combined naman un ah.

hehe.. depensib!

ang confident ko pa kanina kasi natuto na ako (mejo) bumili ng mga items.. tapos mejo naintindihan ko na ung mga recipe stuff na andun.. tapos may alam na rin akong mga cheat (hehehe.. just in case). edi un, ang ginawa ko muna single player, walang hero ung scourge. edi ok, maayos naman. sabi ko kakayanin ko na yang mga hero na yan.

so aun. may hero na both sides.

natataranta naman ako pag titira na, lam mo un.. nagbubuhol-buhol ang mga daliri ko (isama mo pa ang mga mata ko).. and the next thing i know, “(insert hero’s name here) has pawned kriselle’s head for (insert price here)”

huh!?? patay na naman akooooo!!????

nakakaloooka!!

haha.

matutunan ko kaya talagang laruin un ever?

hmm..

mag-aral daw muna ako mabuti.

bawal daw kasi ang bs agchem major in dotA. hihi..

XD

siguro makapal lang ang mukha ko o sadyang martir lang talaga.

ilang ulit na ba akong nasaktan dahil sayo?

ilang ulit na akong umiyak dahil pakiramdam ko ayaw mo talaga sakin?

ilang ulit ko naring tinangkang iwanan ka, pero mahirap.

masakit isiping iiwan ko lang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko.

kaya kahit gano kahirap, titiisin ko.

kahit mukha na kong desperada na pinagpipilitan ang sarili,

ipipilit ko parin.

at gagawin ko na ang lahat para magustuhan mo rin ako.

mapapagod ka rin sa kakabigay sakin ng problema at sakit sa ulo.

tatanggapin at mamahalin mo rin ako.

-the corniest, cheesiest, sappiest, letter to CHEMISTRY.

o ano. feeling nyo naman love letter no.

tsktsk.

i read this from the shout out of my friend Devin Kun (it’s Loui actually) and i grabbed it right away.

i grabbed it because darn it, i SO can relate.

the original text was this:

i return to see if leaving was the right decision. the problem is i kept on leaving and i kept on coming back. i still cannot see what is right and my mind is filled with clouds of reminiscing which make it hard for me to leave…

in connection to loui’s shout out, this would say a part of what really is going through my mind.

well, here goes..

i want to see if leaving would be the right decision. the problem is i keep on planning to leave but i keep on coming back without yet leaving. i still cannot see what is right and my mind is filled with clouds of reminiscing which make it so hard for me to leave…

..what in the freakin universe!??

:c

its sembreak again. and i have been doing things to keep me busy.. kinda like a routine, but it’s not routine “routine” as in doing exactly the same kind of stuff everyday.

i wake up, wash the dishes that my dad, mom and sister (sometimes) leaves before going to work/school, have brunch (yah.. i wake up late. hehe..) then maybe surf  the net, play music full blast (in my room), play computer games (ooh yeah. i have a lot downloaded for me by my precious. haha.. gollum? i even attempted to play dotA once but i’m so stupid when playing that game without assistance. i was still in level one when some monster pawned my head. pathetic. hehe..).. do some more chores like sweep  the floor or whatever else my dad has asked me to do, walk some, stretch some.. no tv huh? occasionally. but i don’t watch a particular kind of show these days. the news probably..

i have planned on going jogging every morning but i think there’s only a 10% or less probability of getting my parents’ consent. they’re protective, you know. plus they kinda have attributed my allergies to the place where i jog-the cemetery park beside our subdivision (i know, i know. go figure.) but then i really haven’t asked yet. i was thinking of sneaking out really early but on the other hand,, ok i’ll just tell them.

today was grey’s anatomy marathon day. but my copy sucks. it’s missing some episodes. so i practically spent my day slumped in front of my ace (which happens to be a laptop. hehe..). i already have a slight headache but watching it is really addicting.. i am so hooked on the meredith-mc dreamy-addison love triangle.. haha.. life as a surgeon, oh boy.. they practically have no life at all. their life (and love life) revolves on the hospital they are working on, on their patients, on themselves..

i wanted to be a doctor when i was a kid, did you know? maybe i still do. maybe it’s at the back of my head, screaming at me.. but i don’t know why i’m thinking that it’s not anymore a possibility. i am so stuck with fantasies sometimes.. i need a constant reminder that hey, this is THE reality. this isn’t grade school or high school where they teach you religion and spoonfeed you with all the ‘good’ things, what you should or shouldn’t do, what’s good, what’s bad.. if i really want something then it’s time i should start working for it.

i’ve lost momentum. i dunno what else i should write. i’ll just end it this way, if you don’t mind.. (as if anyone’s actually reading my stupid senseless posts.)